the flipside is celebrity death. i think everyone at least once in their life feels a pull at their heartstrings when they find out a certain celebrity has died. that's natural, since you're bound to have someone famous you look up to, identify with.

i'll admit, for me, it's pretty easy for me to identify with a celebrity just because i know something about them. so it's the local celebrities that get to me when they die. when kurt cobain died, it was wretched. i had wondered about him fucking in my friend's bedroom years past, y'know? even if i wasn't such a big fan of nirvana, kurt was obviously a tortured soul, and i knew something about that.

but other than kurt, there was this person on the news when i was a teenager. i think he did the weather, but now i don't remember. he retired with a little fanfare. then no one heard about him for a few months. until he was murdered. it seems he had been having an affair. and the jealous husband killed him & his lover. it sounded so tragic at the time. he had retired to build a little love nest with this woman, and then been murdered for it.

then there was the Safeway lady. yep, no one knew her name. but everyone knew her face. she did the Safeway grocery store commercials. a face & voice you can trust, right? like a mom. or an aunt. and then one day she was killed in a traffic accident. and christ, did the news have to tell me she was decapitated in the accident?? of course, Safeway pulled all her commercials right away. but still, the image was there, burned into my mind. aunt Safeway lady, decapitated on I-5.

so why the hell do i bring this up? here's another example in the way my mind works: i want to write an entry about Chocolat, but i'm waiting until i have a little more time one my hands. Chocolat's setting & accents reminded me of this darling little movie I saw at SIFF a few seasons ago, called For Roseanna. a charming film, set in Italy, with great acting, a kwirky story. and it was the last film ever done by Mark Frankel. Mark was a sexy, sexy man with 2 different colored eyes. first saw him in the tv show Sisters so many years ago now. but you couldn't find anyone more perfect to play a vampire. and so they did. he was the lead in "Kindred: The Embraced", the tv show based on the Vampire rollplaying game. he was a damn fine vampire. sexy. ooooo. and then one evening, taking a solo jaunt on his motorcycle, he was killed in an accident. i believe he was the only person involved in the accident. he left a wife & child behind. his wife was pregnant. how tragic.

that's how these things usually strike me. tragic. it was hard when Audrey Hepburn died. she was so beautiful & graceful. but she had lived a life. Princess Diana & Mark Frankel & Curk Kobain & Safeway lady & newsman guy all had long lives in front of them. lives that were snuffed out. and now we will never be graced with the things they gave us ever again. how sad.