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#144 - rain orgasm
Thursday, Aug. 23, 2001 @ 5:18 pm

mmm. i am a very happy girl. life is so good, i'm nervous to change anything that might somehow change everything. i love my husband, i love that i've been writing so much in my diary. i don't love my job, but i love the freedom it gives me to set my own hours and spend time with my writing. one day soon, i should think about if this status quo is good for me or not. but right now, i need some good without bad, so it stays.

feeling a little too relaxed at the moment though. something tiring about the rain. i love it, but it is so lulling. even when the sun peaked out at me as i walked to my car to go home, there was a lovely chill breeze that felt & smelled like Fall. Fall. I love Fall. I can't wait.

Yesterday was so amusing. I was practically holding my breath, waiting anxiously for 4:30 so I could go home and walk in the rain and then sit in my car and listen to it. I smiled to myself as I walked out of the store. I happily walked the 1/2 block in the pouring rain to my car, my little mickey mouse umbrella shielding my face, but not my arms that i swung happily at my sides. and then i got to my car and realized my keys were in my office. i laughed out loud and walked back. my feet were sliding around in my brown mules that i wore without socks, thinking foolishly they would protect from the rain that morning. they did not protect from the downpour & the long walk. i got my keys & did the walk again, not giving a shit about my soaking wet arms, and swimming feet. i got in my car and giggled. sat there and just watched the rain and listened to it murmur to me for minute after minute. finally, i was getting cold & sleepy. i decided to go home, and do this there, so when i got sleepy i wouldn't have a drive in front of me.

i got home & only sat in the car for a minute listening. i came in to warm up. took off my wet clothes, opened the bedroom window & its blind, and crawled under the covers to watch & listen as I pet the cat. except it just wasn't loud enough. and i was horny. i don't remember quite how it happened, but i was taken with the idea of fucking, and now that i was home alone & semi-naked, there was no stopping me.

we had had sex the night before. it was incredible. we seem to go longer & longer every time. and no matter what, it always feels incredible. i didn't have an orgasm, and i didn't care. i still fucked him for all i was worth. it was delicious. but this led to yesterday, and me wanting to fuck some more. so i pulled out my dildo & one of my husband's porn DVDs. happily, my orgasm came rather quickly. oddly, i had one of those false starts, where i thought i was so close, and i take another breath and the precipice has disappeared and i'm down at the bottom of the mountain again. i was about to get frustrated, when it began to build again. and this time i happily reached my peak and shot over it. i just wish i knew why sometimes this works & sometimes it doesn't. fucking is beautiful & lovely, but an orgasm is such a wonderful release.

apparently, though, this did not keep me from being horny last night. i was looking up google hits to my site, when i found this: "find something to slip in my cunt". just the summaries on the first page had my mouth watering. i bookmarked a bunch to read later, and read this one: workstudy. i was creamin' my panties, i tell ya. i wanted my husband to get home so i could jump him.

except an unfortunate string of little annoyances led to me being in the middle of dinner when he finally arrived, and then he had to eat, and then something got in my eye, and i thought i was going to rip it from my head before the visine worked. so then i went to bed. hmph. grr.

i was feeling all horny today at work, but then that strange sleepiness overcame me, and i'm feeling like going to bed again. *sigh* i'll try and write the conclusion to my Wish assignment, and maybe that will pick things up. except i have to feel horny to do it. grr. we'll see what call is loudest tonight. i hate dragging this out for you guys any longer than i have to!

xox

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